The Birthday

Today is my father 52th birthday......im happy and also quite sad...... dunno y....... im happy for his B'day because today v having B'day party at my beloved cousin house..... and i hang out with my cousin go went to shpping mall Jusco at Bukit Tinggi ... nice day..... nand he problem is ...y i sad ? i sad because i now realise my fater already old..... top of the head covered with white hair...T.T im the eldest son in the family.... but i din even behave ... keep maked my family sad.. even a Undang test oso can't pass.. always fail.... Y ? y im such a loser?....T.T any1 can tell me? wat can i do if im such a loser? father already old... my mother oso same ..haiz.....i let my family down... being the eldest are not easy to face the challenge in the part of the life......tats the day i having a Bday in Hari kebangsaan.....